Sunday, October 18, 2015

Project Tell Their Story, Week 3

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Ashley at My Angel Lives came up with this awesome challenge to talk about our angels this month. The month of October is Pregnancy and Infant Awareness Month. Her challenge is set up to have one prompt per day for the month. However, I am going to do mine a little different. I will post a week's worth at a time. This post will contain Days 12 - 18 of the challenge.


Day 12: When my Angel Passed I was Comforted By...

     First and foremost was my boyfriend (now husband). I did not receive any comfort or help from anyone else until after my second miscarriage in 2001. That was when I found the group Pain - Heartache - Hope on yahoo groups ran by Robyn. The group no longer exists under that name; however, it can be found on facebook under Pregnancy and Infant Loss Support October 15th. I am still in contact with the founder, Robyn, as well as several of the ladies I met through the old group.

Day 13: Because of my Angel I am Aware That...

     I am aware that life is fragile. I am aware that tomorrow isn't promised. I am aware that even the smallest of beings are not guaranteed life. I am aware that each child, and person for that matter, is precious. I am aware that I can survive massive heartbreak.

Day 14: My Angel Has Pushed me To...

     Be the best mother I can be to my living children. To be the best person I can be. To be there as a support system for other pregnancy and infant loss moms (and dads too).

Day 15: Today I Light a Candle for my Angel...

     I used to have a candle reserved only for my angels. I would light it on their special days, October 15th, any time they were weighing heavily on my heart. However, that candle is still packed up with all my stuff in my home state. I wish I still had it with me. I wish I had all of my stuff that represents my angels. I did not light a candle this year. The only candle lit was the one in my heart.

Day 16: I Imagine my Angel Would Have Taken After...

     I have 7 rainbows in addition to my 3 angels. I have watched them grow and I see their personality and physical looks. The only thing I can say with certainty is that they would've been a perfect mix of the two of us.

Day 17: When my Angel is Heavy on my Heart, I...

     When this occurs, I usually write a letter to them or one of them (depending on the reason like an upcoming angel day, etc.). I will also listen to my In Memory of My Angels playlist on Apple Music. Other things I have done is write a blog post about them or make a facebook status on the page I have in their memory.

Day 18: On my Angel's Heavenly Birthday I Celebrate by...

     I used to celebrate by having a cake and release a balloon. I also used to buy a special token in their memory such as an angel figurine or something similar. I slacked off over the years but I think I would really like to restart this tradition. Many of my rainbows are now old enough to really understand everything and be a part of this. Dakota's day is coming up in about a month and a half so I may plan to restart this tradition with him. I am ashamed that I allowed my life to become too busy that I allowed my angels to be pushed to the back burner.

** Part 4, Days 19 - 25, will be up on 10/25
** Part 5, Days 26 - 31, will be up on 10/31

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