Saturday, December 31, 2011

Goodbye 2011..... Hello 2012!


There were some parts of 2011 that weren't too bad. I am grateful for my health. I am grateful for healthy children.

2011 ended up being an expensive year for me. Both financially and emotionally. We had vehicle repairs of $1500. This led to more expenses to compensate for not having our vehicle for a time. We remained in Maryland, which I hate. We moved cities within Maryland. I emotionally took a blow during July - October that hit me so hard, I didn't know if I could ever recover from it. There was another incident in November that once again rocked me emotionally.

In 2011, my kids turned 1, 13, 9, 6 and 4. I came to the realization that my baby was no longer a baby. He was becoming an independent little boy. I came to the realization that my oldest child was no longer a child. She was becoming a young woman.

My husband switched jobs. This meant packing up and leaving Maryland -- for North Carolina. Not my precious Louisiana, but getting closer. Surprisingly, I find myself missing parts of Maryland. I miss some of the stores and such.

In 2011, I switched majors in college. I had been working towards an Associates degree in Accounting. The Spring 2011 semester is where I switched majors to pursue an Associates in Social Sciences with a concentration in Psychology. I fell in love with Psychology! My Fall 2011 semester resulted in straight A's and being named on the Dean's List.


I'm trying to be optimistic that 2012 will be a fantastic year! I start out with so much optimism, which gradually diminishes.

I'm looking forward to some stability. Both financially as well as job. Previously, my husband's job was all over the radar. He never knew where he would end up. With this new job, we should be in the Charlotte area of North Carolina for an extended period of time. Although my ultimate goal is to get back to Louisiana. :)

On the school front, I have some big developments in the works. I am not announcing them until all my I's are dotted and T's crossed. But, it is a big thing for me! Of course, though, I am looking forward to many more A's and pulling my GPA up. I am ashamed to say that because of my lack of ability in Accounting, my GPA was bad. But, with Psychology I am pulling it up tremendously! My goal is to finish my degree with at least a 3.6 GPA.

In relation to the kids schooling, I just joined a home schooling group in my area. My group in Louisiana totally rocked! The downfall of that is that it's hard to find others that compare! The one I just joined seems like it's similar and I really hope so! Looking forward to field trips and other outings with them.

I also looked up the NBA schedule and my beloved New Orleans Hornets are coming to play Charlotte in April. I am really trying to go to this game. I have loved the Hornets since they were in Charlotte! Also, my New Orleans Saints play the Panthers in Charlotte once a season. That is also a goal for 2012 - to see my precious Saints live on the field again. The Miami Hurricanes football team is also coming to NC to play the Duke Blue Devils. Ready. To. Go.

I guess in a way, the above could be viewed as a "2012 Bucket List". They're not really resolutions, but things I want to see in 2012.

As for "true resolutions", I have a few. I always say I don't make them because I usually don't keep them. I really need to lose some weight. While people cannot believe I have 7 kids, I am not happy with my weight personally. It is something I want to work on for me. I currently have access to a treadmill 24/7. I should be on it everyday. I also have access to a free membership for a 24/7 gym. I should be in it.

I have never been much a snacker. In fact, 99.9% of snacks consumed by me are only when Chris is around for an extended period of time. In 2012, I need to eliminate all unhealthy snacking. I also need to stop drinking soda and make my meal portion sizes smaller.

In 2012, I need to keep my grades a priority.

How was your 2011? What are you looking forward to in 2012?

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

WWTKW: It's Time For A New Year!

I'm back to What We Want To Know Wednesday after a 4 month blog hiatus! The hosts for this blog party are the wonderful Mamarazzi, Queso and Crazymama.


This week's questions come from the lovely Queso:

{1} What was the best part of 2011?
       2011 was a very rough year for me. Well, from July - October anyway. The best part of the year was probably me making straight A's this semester in college.

{2} What do you look forward to in 2012?
       Stability. And hopefully my first Saints game next season when they come to Carolina. Although since the schedule isn't out yet, that very well could be January 2013. Who knows....

{3} Do you actually keep your New Year resolutions?
      Nope. I even once said that my resolution was to not make any resolutions. Then I realized that I even broke that one just by making it....

{4} What are your top 3 resolutions for the new year?
       Well, since I have to make 3:
          * Lose weight and get healthy.
          * Organize things better.
          * Blog a little more frequently. (You know, a little more than once every 4 months....)

{5} Do you have any fun new years traditions or plans?
      Nope. Never any plans. I'll be lucky if I'm still awake at midnight.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Shopping for the Impossible!

It's December. Christmas-time. My kids hand me their yearly "What I Want" list. See, here we go by a rhyme. Each child gets "Something they want, something they need, something to wear and something to read". Connor is by far the easiest to shop for. We never had to buy all boy stuff before; the chance now is welcoming. The 2 sets of twins listed barbies and doll babies: Piece of Cake. The 9 year old is also easy: "Whatever you get me, Mama, is fine." Then I get to the 13 year old's list. Her "Something I Want" list contains one item:
Image courtesy of the Web

Uhhhh???? I tell her "Sorry, try again! Kidnapping is not on my agenda!" She comes back a few hours later with a revised list.

Something to wear:
Image courtesy of NFL Shop

Something to read:
Image courtesy of the web

We are in North Carolina so Denver jerseys aren't a big item here. So, off to online shopping I go. Jersey = $85! While Chris is sitting there saying, "If it's what she wants...", I have images of the 1990 NKOTB dancing through my head. They were my teenage crushes for oh about 9 months. I veto the jersey and instead find this shirt for $20 including shipping.
Image courtesy of NFL Shop

Pair it with some jeans and her something to wear is done! Besides, she's getting $100 from family. If she wants to spend it all on a jersey herself, then more power to her. Then, I get the dreaded email - "Thank you for your purchase. However, your item is on BACKORDER. It will ship out as soon as possible." AGHHHHH!!!!!

Off in search of the book. Walmart - None. Target - None. Kmart - None. Pull up GPS and find a Barnes and Noble 10 minutes away. Walk in and we start looking. Not in Inspirational. Not in Sports. Not in Football. Finally find an employee and he takes us straight to a center aisle display. Now, why didn't I think to check those? Buy the book. Shew.... Found something.

But, we're still stuck trying to figure out what else to get her. So, we're watching TV last Saturday and they play a show called "Tim Tebow: Everything In Between".
Image courtesy of the web

She's mesmerized. And it's available to buy. Back to Internet searching I go. Walmart - None. Walmart website - Backordered. Amazon - Backordered. Best Buy - Backordered. But, their site says I can order it and pick it up in store. Ok. Order it. Get an email back - None found at this store. Barnes and Noble - Backordered. Ughhhhh!!!!!!!

Then I remember he was on a NCAA Football Xbox game cover.
Image courtesy of web

We find a pre-owned copy at Game Stop. We pick that up.

And she's just gonna have to deal with it because she isn't the easiest to shop for!

** Side Notes: The shirt did ship out today and should arrive by Thursday. We are planning to get the DVD whenever we find it! **

Monday, December 19, 2011

Music Monday: Louisiana!

Guess who's back?!?! It's been a long while since I posted a blog. We have had A LOT going on. I will be updating in a later post. Right now, I am starting my weekly memes back up. My Music Monday is supposed to be a song that reminds me of somwhere.

Back in Summer 2009 when I returned to Louisiana, this song was ALWAYS on the radio. Now, every time I hear it, all I think of is Louisiana.

Adapted from the 30 Day Song Challenge

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

We Want To Know Wednesday #4


I'm linking up with We Want To Know Wednesday hosted by Mamarazzi and Alicia AKA Queso.

These questions are from Mamarazzi and she wants to know all about our childhood...

{1} Did you live in the same town or move around a lot as a child? 
I lived in the same area for 30 years. We moved around to different houses frequently, but I never had to change schools or anything. My mother just liked to move; I think she has a problem.

{2} What were your parents like?
I lived with both of my parents until I was 9. My dad was out in his own world. I wouldn't say neglectful or anything. He just didn't spend much time home. My mom was strict and rigid. You knew what was expected of you and you best do whatever you had to in order to achieve it. After they split up, I never saw my dad. My mom was the same. Actually worse as hard as that is to imagine.

{3} Do you have any siblings? What were they like growing up?
I have two older half sisters from my mom's first marriage. They didn't live with us so I only saw them on holidays and weekends. I idolized them. I have one younger brother; same parents. We had the typical sibling relationship. He was the annoying little brother.

{4} Share a short story from your childhood.
Hmmmm.... I really try not to remember much of my childhood. I remember when I was younger, maybe around 3, I was with my dad, uncle and granddaddy at my grandparent's house. My mom, grandma and aunt had gone to a wedding or something. But, there was a thunderstorm and lightening struck the second story and caught the house on fire. I was traumatized. I am still terrified of thunderstorms. For years after that incident, I would pack all my favorite stuff in a backpack and wear it during storms in case our house caught on fire and we had to run out.

{5} What did you look like? (share a childhood pic for a chance to win a prize)
Me as a baby:

Me as a child:

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Where I've Been....

I have been MIA from blog world for the last week. I was going to participate in WWTKW yesterday but the questions didn't speak to me. In all reality, I had a family problem to take care of. This particular family problem has had me thinking a lot. A lot about the demons in my past. I have been writing them out on paper. With every intention of sharing them on this blog. But, after reading the first one, I decided that I was unsure if I wanted to do that. They are filled with so much raw emotion and it puts a lot of myself out there. I'm not sure if I'm ready to share that part of me with the world. I'm still having problems reading it about myself, remembering the days those demons popped into my life. I'm still writing, one at a time. And maybe one day, I can feel comfortable enough to share them.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

We Want To Know Wednesday #3

I'm linking up with We Want To Know Wednesday with Mamarazzi and Alicia AKA Queso


This week's questions come from Alicia AKA Queso:

{1} Who would you call if you had to get bailed out of jail?
       Well, Chris naturally. Who else would come bail my crazy ass out of jail on a moment's notice? Besides he'd probably just meet me there since he would more than likely be a witness to it all.

{2} If you were a superhero what would your hero name be?
       SUPERMOM! Duh! I am a stay at home mom of 7 kids, ranging from ages 13 years to 17 months. I home school them. I am in college full time studying Psychology. And I do it pretty much alone since the husband works like 80 hours a week.

{3} What do you think is one of your best qualities?
        I have one of the biggest, most caring hearts ever. I will literally give you the shirt off my back if you need it. I try to help people out as much as I can. Until you betray me. Then screw you!

{4} What song would you pick to be your own personal theme song?
       Bitch by Meredith Brooks!
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed

{5} What celebrity do you think is most over rated?
       KIM KARDASHIAN!!! Actually the entire family but mainly her. She is the most un-exciting of them. Yes, she is famous for absolutely nothing.

Monday, July 25, 2011

Music Monday: Love

This week's Music Monday is a song that reminds me of someone. This is I Love You by Celine Dion. This has been mine and Chris' song since the beginning of our relationship so it reminds me of 15 years of memories with him.


Adapted from the 30 Day Song Challenge

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Rockin' The Baby! Well, in my case Babies!

(Button by Jess at The Frilly Coconut)

Last month I participated in Rockin' The Bump with Shell at Things I Can't Say. This month she is hosting Rockin' The Baby.

I may be a little biased, but I think I have the 7 cutest babies in the whole wide world!

This is my oldest. She was about 10 months old in this picture. She was a little diva back then. Well, ok, she still is. She's 13 now.

This is Baby CS#2. She was 6 months old here. Today she is a wild 8 year old!

I considered doing CS#3 and CS#4 separately. But, then I saw this picture. They were 6 weeks old! I love it because CS#4 looks like she is talking away and CS#3 is asleep, ignoring her as usual! Today they are 5 years old. CS#3 is a tomboy and CS#4 is a prissy girl.

CS#5 and CS#6 are twins as well. But, I decided to do them separately because they are the exact opposite of the "2 peas in a pod" twin myth. They are both about 9 months old in these pictures. Today they are 3 years old.
CS#5 -- I love that little grin!

CS#6 -- A computer girl just like Momma!

And last but not least, we have CS#7, the baby. The only boy. He was 5 days old and coming home from the hospital. Now, he is 18 months old. Still, a little baby. At least to me.

See? I told you they were the cutest babies. Ever.

Monday, July 4, 2011

Music Monday: Song That Makes Me Sad

This is the song that always makes me cry. It reminds me of my Nanny...

Twenty - one years ago today, my Nanny died. It forever changed the way I viewed the 4th of July. A day of celebrating and family fun was now a day of sadness and grief. Every year, I keep to myself. I pretend the day doesn't exist. To me, it's just a day that I move through never allowing myself to feel  anything. Now I know she wouldn't like that I do this. I know that if she were alive and saw me grieving for someone else in this manner, I'd get a good earful. She would never allow me to grieve in this way. But, fact of the matter is I was taught by my mother to hide my emotions. To never let anyone see me grieve. And so, I never properly grieved all those years ago. And it affects the way I grieve now. I am still trying to grieve her death. I'm scared to let go. Scared that if I do, then she's lost to me forever.

I usually write a letter to her each year. But, this year her memory has been with me way too much. You see, when I get really upset. Or depressed. Or confused. She becomes the big focus of my thoughts. I like to think its because I still need her advice and guidance. Well, I know I still need her advice. There's so much going on right now that I know I would value her opinion on. but, it is what it is. I am left with envisioning what she would say.

With all that is going on right now, I do need her. Desperately. And it saddens me that she isn't here. That she isn't here to hug me and reassure me. That she isn't here to see all that is happening, good and bad, with me and her family...

10 Days of BS: I'm Fine

★Day 04- What do you lie about the most?★

I lie about very little. I am an open book and I tell it like it is. I feel like I shouldn't have to lie to you about anything. If your hair looks like shit, then I'm going to tell you it does. But, there is one thing I will lie about. And I do. Every. single. day. It's when I say "I'm fine." Because you know what? I'm not! I'm not fine being taken out of the place I love and brought to the East Coast. Which, I hate the East Coast. I'm not fine being stuck with my kids every single day of my life with no break. No hour for me to spend alone. No down time. I'm not fine never seeing my husband yet never seeing a paycheck worth all the time he's away. I'm not fine feeling neglected and then told I'm wrong for feeling that way. I'm not fine being told my degree means nothing because nothing will ever mean more than his job. Catch my drift? I'm not fine. Yet, I have to smile and act like nothing is wrong....

Sunday, July 3, 2011

10 Days of BS: It Made Me Who I Am

★Day 03- An experience you're not proud of, but has made you the person you are today.★

Wow... this is a subject that I have been dwelling on for the last few days. Because honestly, this experience randomly shows up in my head every now and then. {And I really, really apologize to my husband for this post because this is a very sore subject among us}

Back in June 2009, I started talking to this guy. Yeah, at the time I thought it was a great idea. He said all the right things. He made me fall for the lines. He then destroyed me emotionally. It took a few weeks, but I bounced back from it. I moved on. Kinda. He still stays in my mind. He still pops up front and center every now and then.

In all honesty, every so often over the last couple of years, I'd enter his name into Google. And I'd come up empty. I started to wonder if it was really all just my imagination and he never existed. Then last week, his name returned a LinkedIn profile. Complete with email address and twitter. But, I refuse to contact him. That's not what's important. I don't want him back in my life. I think it's more of a prove to myself that he was there and that I'm not missing a thing without him.

I'm not proud of being with him. For various reasons. But, it made me stronger. Made me view things differently. Made me who I am. Made me what I am.


Friday, July 1, 2011

10 Days of BS: Me and Alcohol

I have decided to link up with the ★10 Days Of Bullshit Challenge★ with ★ Rockin' Mama ★! I am a day behind so I'm putting Day 1 and Day 2 together.

★Day 01- A recent photo of you with a funny caption.★

Anyone who knows me knows that there are very few, if any, pictures of me. This isn't my most recent picture, but it'll do.
"See the Wheels Grinding?"

★Day 02- How was your first experience drinking alcohol?★

I remember very little. Please note that the person involved in this will always deny their involvement. But, whatever. No need to protect yourself now.

It was June 16, 1994. Want to know how I remember that date? The next day was the infamous OJ Simpson White Bronco chase. And I was watching it. Hungover. But, anyways. Back to the story at hand.

I was 15. Just finished my sophomore year. My mom was out of town which meant my older sister stayed with us. {She was 21} She had her boyfriend and two friends over. The game to play back then was Quarters. So, my sister fixed me a Strawberry Daiquiri and we sat down and played.
Ok, except it didn't look that good. It was in a cup like this:
But, we played round after round. And I drank daiquiri after daiquiri. Until I was really, really loopy. When i couldn't stand up they decided game was over. I then proceeded to try and make up the sofa bed for my sister's friends using curtains. Yeah, didn't work out all that great! Then I slept until 11 am the next morning, had a pounding headache and swore off alcohol. That didn't last long. 

Friday Confessionals -- 7/1/11


   that I am tired of being my husband's "mistress". His job is his wife. I know I should be thankful that he has a job, but its hard when you never see him except to watch him sleep. I feel like a single mother most of the time.

   that lately I have been feeling really selfish. I want to do things for me. Like get my hair done, get my nails done, get a pedicure, buy some new clothes, make up, etc. I really, really want to do some things for me.

   that because of all the time I have to spend without my husband, things from the past have started to cross my mind again. I don't want them there. AT. ALL. But, they are.

   that I do have a lot on my mind. A lot that is personal and private that will not be shared publicly. But, there is a lot on my mind that sometimes keeps me away from my blog.

   that I sometimes miss my days as a firefighter. Sometimes I wish I could go back to it. But, at this time I can't.

Do you have any confessions for the week?

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

WWTKW and Way Back When - ensday: Sleepy Girl

This week I'm linking up with We Want to Know Wednesday hosted by Impulsive Addict, Janette, Mamarazzi and Seriously Shawn.

1. What was the last thing you searched for online?
    Ok, the actual last thing I did a major search for online is another blog post in itself. So, the last little thing I did a online search for was the Baltimore, MD weather for today.

And in case you're wondering, it is currently cloudy and 85*. High of 88* today.
Sadly, I'd rather be in Louisiana where it's currently 92*, heat index of 101* and high supposed to be 93*. Yes, I look up the weather there every day.

2. If we visit your home state, what is one MUST we should do before leaving?
      The state I was born and raised in was Virginia. And there's a lot to do there! I was blessed with being raised there no matter what I may say.
So, in no particular order, you should visit (and, yes. I have been to all of these in my life!):
The Historic Triangle (Jamestown, Colonial Williamsburg and Yorktown)

Luray Caverns

Arlington, Virginia (which will then lead you to Washington, DC)

Skyline Drive (Shenandoah Valley)

Virginia Beach

3. What do you think pharmaceutical companies should invent a pill for that isn't on the market yet?
       Of course for the most common ailment that there is nothing for: stupidness. I could write a book on all the people I know that could use a pill for this. There are just way too many!

4. When was your first kiss? Was it good or bad?
        It was when I was 11. It was with the guy I had been crushing on all year. He finally asked me to be his girlfriend. {For the record, this only lasted for like 2 weeks.} We were hanging out in the garage at his best friend's house (who happened to be my neighbor) and it just happened. Wasn't like a great kiss but definitely wasn't worse.

5. What is your guilty pleasure tv show that you can not miss?
        Treme. I blogged about it here.

*Question #4 is brought to us by Amber and Nadine.

*Question #5 came from Vandy.

I am also linking up with Way Back When - esday with Twinfatuation.

Child -- Charlotte 
Dateline of photo -- December 2007
Her age -- 2 years, 2 months

When Charlotte was a baby, we'd always find her sleeping in awkward positions and places. This was one of them. But, she was perfectly content.


Tuesday, June 28, 2011

What I Learned This Week: A Bunch of Nothing


 It really amazes me sometimes what I learn within a given week. Mainly its off-the-wall, craziness. Sometimes, it's actually something truly valuable. So, here we go for this week:

  • I learned that 6 kids + 12 ice cream cups = someone getting more/less than the others. I swore when I bought this product that 12 ice cream cups divided by 6 kids = 2 cups a piece. Apparently my math is rusty. It didn't work out that way.
  • I learned that some people just shouldn't have positions of power. And, yes, this is one of the gems that I believe to be important. You know the type. "Oh, I am so special and deserve to be treated as such." "Oh, I deserve to only be at the top and no where else." Yet, they really truly have no clue on God's green earth how to perform their job at that level. I really could go on and on about this. But, I'll spare you. This time.
  • I learned its time to clean your laptop screen when you can't tell if it's a speck of dirt or a lowercase i. Ooops....
  • I learned that planning a one day trip to Ellis Island and Liberty Island in New York takes 4 months of preparation.
  • Now, this one is very important. I learned that when I open an email in my Gmail App, it saves the pictures to my memory card in my phone. Now, why is this important? Because, this is information you need to know when you hand your phone over to your husband so he can view the photos you took of the kids. Since, you're gonna have to explain who the picture of the strange guy is that got saved from a friend's email.
  • Sometimes, it's just best to leave well enough alone. There is no need to re-live, re-hash and spend time wondering about things that just belong in the past. It only equals pain in the end.
  • I have learned that I can easily plan and write a blog post... only not for the current day!
Now, hop on over to From Inmates to Playdates and see what other things people have learned!

Monday, June 27, 2011

Music Monday: Song that Makes Me Happy

This one has been really tough for me. I love music. A lot. But yet, I couldn't come up with one single song that made me happy! I mean, how does someone who likes music not know of at least one? Maybe my version of happy didn't equal the world's version of happy?

Finally, after searching my music folders and listening to endless hours of Pandora radio, I decided that this song made me happy.

It involves two of my most favorite things in the world: New Orleans and the Saints.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

My Happy List 6/25/11


It makes me HAPPY that the 6th movie in the Fast and the Furious series will be out in May 2013 cause looking at Vin Diesel makes me HAPPY. {Shhhh.....}
Image Credit: Jaimie Trueblood

It makes me HAPPY that Vin Diesel is getting a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame. Because, in case you didn't know, anything about Vin Diesel makes me HAPPY.
Can we say "Road trip to Hollywood" in the future.

Where was I? Oh yeah, my happy list...

Well, these 6 for the most part make me HAPPY.
My six Daughters

And this little guy, he is always doing something goofy to make me laugh which makes me HAPPY
My son

It makes me HAPPY when my kids all get along. Oh, wait that hasn't happened in reality yet. Well, the DREAM of it happening makes me HAPPY!

Well something else made me HAPPY this past week, but hey, a girl's gotta have her secrets! ;-)

So, what made YOU happy this week?

Friday, June 24, 2011

Friday Confessionals 6/24/11


    that my appointment to enroll in classes for Fall 2011 isn't until July 5th. And I'm already obsessing over it!

    that while typing the above confession, I stopped to browse the online course catalog. And wrote down the 1st round of classes before I change my mind again classes I'll sign up for.

     that 3 of them are taught by my favorite professor from the Spring semester. And I selected that particular section because of that fact.

     that I am so home sick for Louisiana that it literally hurts!

Which leads to I CONFESS....
     that I actually blocked 2 friends moving to Louisiana on my facebook just so I didn't have to hear their bragging about it. Call me a hater. I don't care. I just choose not to have it rubbed in my face that they get to be where I want to be so desperately.

What's your confessions this week?